I feel claustrophobic out here. Life is running by…
I am yet to recover from the hangover of the pace of this city.
No matter how much I love to blog… i cant find myself doing it anymore.
There is nothing more I could possibly ask for in this life… yet I am not sure if there is anything more I would want.
What is it… I dunno.
I never really liked the city and my experiences in the past couple of days have only confirmed my belief.
I ventured out for the first time, all by myself to buy a reliance connection, only to be duped or rather misled by the representative into recharging for a scheme that made my primary scheme lapse. Total loss - more than 500 bucks.
And I am not even planning to discuss the pain of waiting for an hour even when I was the first customer in the damn queue. Call to hubby - “I hate mumbai”. It was after an hour long bickering and 22 hr wait that the scheme was revived, but I still lost 100 bucks.
My foray in the new city led me to go grocery shopping, my second best past time post sleeping. Godrej’s Nature Fresh is just around the corner, and the name and excess hours at hand lured me into the store. I assure you I had nothing to do with it. Awesome brands, a few that I know of and a lot that I had never heard of. A few fruits and vegetables and my bill was close to a thousand bucks. Boy ! Did I do some grocery shopping!!
I assumed it normal going by my past experience at Hypercity which scares me to death each time I try and recall it. No, Dont even bother to ask, cos I aint sharing. Its too expensive for me to share.
Anyways back to godrej, after paying the hefty vegetable bill, I for once thought of checking it. I am not sure what conspired that, since Varshita for one is not known to behave in such an erratic manner. I learnt how extravagantly costly the babycorns were… just abt 300 bucks for 100 gms. Ouch !! The last time I checked I was still in India.
I blamed myself since I wasnt wearing my contacts, but my delhi genes werent quite ready to stay quiet and muttered to the cashier how cheap the babycorns were in Our DELHI. And was I in for a surprise. The pack read 30 bucks while I was charged 300 bucks for that pack of babycorn.
Another frantic call to my dear hubby. Subject and content of the call - “I HATE MUMBAI. PERIOD”.
Single to Married.
Funny as it may seem, but it doesnt quite feel that way.
Its been a while since I wrote anything. A lot has happened in the past couple of days. Life has changed tremendously.
Last month this time I was anxious about the uncertain future. Today, I have a somewhat certain future. Got engaged this month and am scheduled to wed the next. Strange are the ways of life. Earlier the clock was ticking. Now I feel its running, not that I am complaining.
The experience of the euphoric feeling for the past couple of days was so exhilarating that today seems quite alien to me. Today I am back to my introspection mode…
I often feel that there is more to me than what people see. I also feel that there is more to me than what I am aware of. The days I am blank are bliss. The days where I dont even get the time to sit and think how the day went by. The days when life just passes by… with the emotion overpowering me.
I just saw “Into the wild”, that pretty much explains the mood I am in right now. I feel there is a side of me that totally relates to Chris. A side of me that questions this world, its existence, the reason behind it and the sheer possibility of it being capable of being explained. These are the times I am quiet. These are the times when silence seems beautiful. These are the times when only thoughts exist. These are the times when I simply float in them. These are the times when I dont reach out for the phone to call…
The fragility of crystal is not its weakness, but its character.
I had so many posts lying in my drafts, which were getting just way too much. So I decided it was cleanup time !
It was time I got rid of them. Deleted a few and published a few. I feel so good looking at the neater write post page with just 2 drafts left.
yey !!
The post is titled so, cos for long its been in the draft with just that title, as I never gave it any. So for a change I thought I’d just let it be that way.
The more selfless it is, the easier it is to feel ‘truly’ good about letting it all go…
I think aloud
I speak my mind
I dont think and speak
I love and let it be known
I dont manipulate in relationships
I dont hide stuff
I am more concerned about the person I love than my own self
I get angry and blabber
I change myself for the person I love
I accept my mistakes
I say sorry and mean it
I persist
I dont have an ego
I dont believe in religion
I believe in working on the problems
I try till I lose
I dont give up easily
I am a hogger for love
I forgive easily
I dont forget ( life would be so damn easy with the absence of this one little thing!!)
I need clarity
I look for reasons
I search for answers
I let people become the center of my happiness
I let people believe I dont have a center of happiness within
I talk a lot
I be myself
I cant have a two face
I believe in complete transparency in relationships
Owning up the responsibility… whatever maybe the consequence have the spine to accept it as your choice !
Dont lie to yourself
dont manipulate
be what you are
Dont regret the good that you did, despite the fact it wasnt treated well
Be a man in this man’s world
Be honest, open and clear of what you think
Take your own decisions and stick to them
and finally….Have faith!!
Awesome dialogue…
jo admi na pyar kar sake na pyar samajh sake usse zyada badnaseeb koi nahi
My dad has been the most forgiving person whom I have met in this lifetime.
I say so not cos he is my dad , but cos I know the amount and height of mistakes and blunders that I have done and the way and ease with which he has forgiven it all and still loved me and taken me in his arms.
If only we could be as forgiving…