I have learnt to celebrate my sorrows, my losses and above all my defeats. Since childhood, I have always seen my dad doing this, and maybe have picked it up from there. Whenever I expected a thrashing, I was given a soft cushion. Whenever I expected a scolding, I got soft words, and when I expected a lull of silence, he took us out for celebration. I call it celebration in style.

When I got mere 80% in my class XII boards, he called people to boast of my performance and hosted a family get-together. When he had to declare the news of our joint family breaking up, he did so after an expensive dinner and ice-cream. When I banged the car for the first time in college, and called to inform him so, all he asked was if I was all-right. When I got my second division in college and thought that my life was doomed, he just smiled and took us all out for dinner.

Whenever in life I have expected an expected behaviour from him, he has always done the opposite. And this is one thing I simply love about him. Just when you feel you have lost everything, he will be there to support you through it all.

Jaane kya chahe mann baawra, akhiyan mere saawan chala….

Today I lost what could have been a part of my life. And I tried to smile and celebrate on this yet another loss of mine.

Still only this song does justice to what I feel right now….

Laakad jal ke koyla hoye jaaye
Jiya jale to kuch na hoye re
Na dhuan na raakh
Jiya na jalaiyo re, haye
Jiya na lagaiyo re

Barf pighal ke paani hoye jaye re
Baadal ban udd jaye
Peed jiya mein aisi baithi re baithi
aisi baithi re baithi
Na pighle na jaaye re
Nadi kinaare behte sahaare
Naav na lagaiyo re
Na lagaiyo re
Jiya na lagaiyo re

Jhoote vachan sab saari baatein
Rut barkha ka paani
Baras baras sab beh jaave
sab beh jaave re
Jee le jitni maani
Sawan se yeh na bujhne ki
Jaan na jalaiyo re
na jalaiyo re
Jiya na jalaiyo re
Jiya na lagaiyo re