You need balls to break the silence

Its all quiet right now. Just the faint sound of the fan as if its going to fall off if its made to run any faster and ‘Bol na halke halke – Jhoom barabar Jhoom’ playing on the computer. Rest its all but silence. Nothing but pure silence.

I know people who prefer silence. Infact I have known myself during the times I so want everyone around to simply shut up. But what happens when you are screaming inside but its all quiet outside? Not cos you cant shout. But cos there is no one to hear and respond to that scream with a concern. Well… to think of it, If I do scream right now, it would only disturb my dad’s sound sleep. Thats about it.

I am mostly a silent kid at home. Who hardly speaks. Who is hardly awake to speak. Who is hardly available when the other beings at home are awake. Thats me. Yes that bad girl is me. There I said it !

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Why do we dream while sleeping?

Arent we supposed to be resting while sleeping? Then why do we dream? Why is it that we remember a few of them and forget most of them?

What do they mean? What is behind these dreams? Some unfulfilled aspirations? ( I am not too sure how many people would actually want to have a reality of answering a question paper in just the last 30 mins)

It seems most of the times that we are living these dreams. The fear, nervousness, even physical responses at times reflect it being there as a reality to us. havent you experienced getting up from a dream all drenched in sweat (not when there is no electricity, duh!!), or speaking a word and getting up?

Does it even occur to you that there might be another world you are living in? When you sleep here, you go there. And when you sleep there, You are here!

Freaky, isnt it? Think about it.

You hide when you know you are wrong

My dad says when you hide something, you yourself know that there is something wrong with what you are doing and therefore avoid disclosing it.

Hiding itself states you know you are doing something wrong. Otherwise why would you hide?

I know people have their theories that you hide cos you dont want the other person to get hurt and other zillion reasons. But by far, the truth in my dads words has won hands down on the table of discussion.

You are fortunate, if your mom is ‘Mean’

The title of the article isnt quite what you would send to your parents in their anniversary card. But my sister just did that!!

Now you may pick up your jaws off the floor and continue to read why it was sent.

Someday when my children are old enough to understand the logic that motivates a parent, I will tell them, as my Mean Mom told me:

I loved you enough… to ask you where you were going, with whom, and what time you would be home.

I loved you enough to be silent and let you discover that your new best friend was a creep.

I loved you enough to stand over you for two hours while you cleaned your room, a job that should have taken me just 15 minutes.

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The ‘J’ Factor

How often do we ponder over the reason behind our jealousy. Is it only cos we are saddned by the fact that we dont have what others have or we didn’t get what others did. Or is it the realisation that we may NEVER have what others just did !!

Many a times the jealousy is artificial. If thought logically it shouldn’t be there at all, as there seems no reason for it to be in the first place. But then, when we talk of the J factor, logic simply goes out of the window.

We all are jealous at some point or the other. Jealous of our siblings, friends, companions, seniors, neighbours, acquaintances and so on.. But the reason and the extent of jealousy varies considerably when we move within these domains. Jealousy may not always be for material issues, it can be present even for the silliest and the most stupid reason as well. I think even the life of this fator is a question that calls for some thinking.

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