Bored Beyond Belief !!

Teri yaadein, mulakaatein,
woh raatein aur baatein
teri sansein, woh baahein
ab mujhko yaad aaye
tere bina mera jiya sataaye kyon piya
yaadon ne teri mujhpe yeh jaado kiya re

teri sansein, woh baahein
ab mujhko yaad aaye
woh adaon ki ghatayein
mere dil ko choo jaye
pyare yeh duniya saari mene
hai tujhpe waari
dil ne, mere dil ne
tujhse yaari ki, baazi haari

tere khayaalo mein bas tum
meri nigaahon mein bas tum
wapas aa jao
mere paas tum sada
wapas aa jao

soona mera jahan
bhoola main hoon kaha jaata
hai jaan-e-jaan tera rahoon piya
wapas aa jao
mere paas tum sada
wapas aa jao

piya tera jiya
tu hai kahan
tera karoon intezaar
tu mere dil ka karaar
itna hai aitbaar
manoonga na main bhi haar

Why do I take everything so personally?

Why cant I just let it be?

Beetey lamhe kyon har pal yaad aate hai
yaad aa aa kar phir humein kyon is tarah sataate hai
kyon ek insaan ek aisi chaap chod jaata hai
jo chah kar bhi yeh dil mita nahi paata hai
kyon yeh aansu thamne ka naam nahi lete
us ajnabi ki raah ko takte hai rehte
kyon yeh dil bas ek zid kare baitha hai
us sangdil ke pyar ki aas lagaye baitha hai
kyon yeh mausam itna haseen ho chala hai
pal pal saath bitaye lamho ka saaz ched chala hai
kyon is dard se har pal meri jaan chali jaati hai
har dhadkan ek hi fariyaad kare jaati hai
kyon pyar mein dard ka saath zaroor milta hai
ankhein band to jannat, khulne par khaakh hi milta hai
kyon zameer kisi ka awaaz nahi deta
kisi ke matam pe khushiya hai saja deta
kyon tanhaiyan is mod pe raas nahi aati
ujaale ke lauv se andheron mein hai le aati
kyon is dil ke tootne par koi awaaz nahi hai
ya zamana shayad aaj behra ho chala hai
kyon is dil ki dastak aaj ansuni ho gayi
woh chalta chala gaya, aur main yahi reh gayi

Mom starts praying

why dont the bowlers bowl a wide or no ball !

I was so upset the last time I wrote a proper post that I had actually taken a sort of vow to not write for a while as I felt so disgusted by the whole issue.

Anyways…the point being, whenever I am down and out, I do well. How ironic! I perform best under pressure, I do double the work when I am angry and I am open to new things when I shut myself. And ever since I got this new PC there have been great learnings instore for me every week. Things that I so wanted to do but was scared and even skeptical at times to take it up.

So for another technical update, I have started using torrents !
Torrents are, must say, brilliant stuff. Seen seven movies in ten days. One in hall, 6 on computer after downloading them through torrents. And another one is on its way of downloading.

The movies I saw :
Before sunrise
Before sunset
Requim for a dream
The departed
Little Miss Sunshine
Love actually
Heyy babyy (Hall)

“Memento” is the one which is downloading right now.

I have also started helping people on Yahoo answers. And I already have 24 of my answers being chosen as Best answers in less than a weeks time !

Updates on personal front: Amazed at the strict financial control I am able to exercise on myself, making truce with myself, trying to forgive n seek forgiveness, cant believe I am gymming regularly and still in search for ways to keep my boredom at bay.

Like I once told this friend of mine while describing myself

I am one hyperactive kid

Memories are a wonderful thing, if you dont have to deal with the past.

Awesome dialogue from the movie Before Sunset (Sequel of Before Sunrise).

That a person be nice to the whole damn world except for one? That you hold a set of values when you meet n interact with others and nothing of that exists when it comes to a few people?

That you chose to communicate with friends and not family when you say ” I want to take time off”?

That you are unavailable and unapproachable for a few people and very much available for others behind curtains?

That you be yourself in the company of friends and say that you arent to others?

That silence is just for a few and chit-chat for others?

That you can still be friends with people who have hurt and let you down and not with the person you have let down?

People amaze me everyday now and still I am the one who is judged !

I am a teacher myself. But today I am calling out for help.

Can someone please teach me how to live with a mistake?

Ok, this post is an update to the one I wrote a few days back.

Now I

And most importantly

Thats one thing I so wanted to do on my comp. Watch a video on Youtube without any interruption / delay. And thats the first thing I did when I started the Internet on my new machine.

But now despite the fact that I have all of it, all that I so admired on others machines, I still am not happy. Cos I so wanna shout scream n share, which I cant.

If the trailer of the sequel of Titanic is anything to go by, it will surely be a rage but not as great as the original. Everyone knows Jack (Leonardo Dicaprio) died in the original. But hold your breath he returns in the sequel. . ( a friend just said.. kya bakwaas hai.. koi hindi movie thode hi hai )

Before you start wondering if its a ghostly story, let me clear the air by saying that its the most foolish concept that Hollywood could ever come up with to base a movie on.

Anyways, Jack returns frozen in an ice slab, and voila there he is all alive and kicking! But poor rose is dead now. So we dont get to see Kate winslet in the movie.

So its like a person who returns after years only to a world that he isnt aware of… i.e. his future… where nothing that he knew earlier exists anymore. Add to that some scientists who want to keep him captivated for scientific observations n tests n blah blah blah. But our hero runs away to the New world. So we have nostalgia, we have action and emotional melodrama. We also get to see John Cusack (slimmer n sexier) and Winona Ryder in the movie.

Arent they aping bollywood for concepts now? Cos it surely seems like that to me!